A 2017 list should resemble something along the lines of a resolutions list of ‘never gonna happen stuff but let’s believe it for a hot minute’. I absolutely hate New Year’s Eve and if it were up to me, I would never celebrate it. It was up to me this year, and I didn’t celebrate it. So, whilst I was tucked up in bed with my Netflix documentaries, I envisioned my first blog post of 2017. I imagined something motivational but all my ideas were falling flat.
Making a list of goals or aspirations for the year ahead is redundant and to be honest, who the fuck reads those? I was yawning at the concept of writing a list of things I wanted to be in 2017, why not appreciate who I already am? Never look to what you don’t have, but give thanks for the negatives you’re not experiencing on a daily basis. We always think about the great aspects of our lives but we don’t stop to think how it could be so much worse and how far we’ve come. If I think back to this day 365 days ago, it’s like two separate people. I spent New Year’s Day congratulating myself for moving forward with what I wanted when the world was telling me otherwise.
The “I Am Not” concept came to me in a blazing brain fart, nothing short of brilliant. This has probably been done before and please don’t think I’m claiming it, I just fell in love with this idea and felt like a fresh little daisy after completing my list.
My 2017 list – I am not:
I am not in a job I hate.
I am not in an unhappy relationship.
I am not worried about what others think of me.
I am not working for the sake of working; I am following my passion.
I am not unhealthy and I have my chronic illness under control.
I am not surrounded by people who make me feel less about myself.
I am not in a relationship for the sake of being in a relationship.
I am not doing things I don’t want to do.
I am not alone; I have the love of incredible friends and family.
I am not being fake to please people.
I am not worried about what my ‘friends’ are saying about me.
I am not stressed; what will be will be and to not have control is life.
I am not concerning myself by what society tells me I should be doing.
I am not living my life for anyone else but myself.
I am not second-guessing everything I write in the stress that someone may judge me.
I am not living in fear or in fear of failure.
I am not counting my calories and enjoying every bite of guilty pleasures.
I am not holding back in 2017, it may very well be my last year on this planet.
YOU are not contractually bound to living a life you don’t enjoy.
Here’s to sexual, majestic, swell 2017!